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OMG!...

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 16:07:53 GMT

I seriously ~~dislike~~ hate scals
They have no purpose in life
They should all die
I'm already falling apart at the seams And then they do this....

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Graphic i know.... and thats after the swelling has gone down! And they did it for what.... £1.25 and a £90 phone which was blocked anyway!

How they can turn someone from this.....

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To this.....

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Is beyond me!

Hes so lucky..... his eyes congeled with blood, fractured his cheek bone, brusied his neck, one side of his face is bruised, his blood vessels have all burst in his face and 'SHOCKINGLY' the has a foot print on his head where they stood on it!

And the bastards got away!

Its goin down as attempted murder because they just randomly came up to him when he was wqalking home from my house and said what have you got.... when he replied nothing... they said give me wat you've got.... then he said no fuck off!

They then thought they had the right to hit my boyfriend while the bigger one held him.... then choke him til all his blood vessels in his face burst under the pressure while he was gasping to take another breath. They then told my boyfriend he was "GOING TO SLEEP NOW!" and as he laid on the floor gasping for air he larger of the two scals (YES 2!... not very fair is it!?!?!) proceeded to kick him in his head which he was lucky didnt blind him! or cause brain damage!

Yeah.... DILEMMA IN MY LIFE!

Then luckily the other day (4 days later) My big brother was driving him home when he spotted the lad that had beat him up in the 1st place! He told my brother and my brother was gonna batter him becasue hes 6 ft. 2" and the other lad was about 5ft. 10". We were gonna give him a taste of his own medacine... but then my boyfriend said to just follow him! My dad ended up going out too and slaming him against the railings where he was and saying "do you remember telling some lad the other day that you were gonna put him to sleep, well i'm gonna do it to you now only this time its permanent" then they dragged him backwards while my brother smashed his head into a lampost... and tried to get him back to the nearest police station!.... because of all things the police wouldnt come out! BASTARDS! Then when my dad was gonna beat the shit outta him my brother pointed out some coppers in a van

They were called over and they already knew the shit house.... he threatend to blow the sargents head off the day before my boyfriend got attacked!

Hes really dangerous, aparently like some sort of animal when he fights.... the little SHITBAG!

Now we might have to go to court to get him put away.... but so far just for my boyfriends case he has attempted murder, ABH (actual bodily harm), Robbery and asaulting a minor since my boyfriends 16 and hes 20 something... GRRRRRRRRR at him!

Cant wait for this guy to be put away
I cant stand people who think coz someones a bit different they must be beaten up to teach them a lesson
They are so shallow minded
I HATE HIM!
and i hope he rots in a jail cell for the rest of his life!

Is it Weird...

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 00:41:54 GMT

That when i watch the tele and see thiner people on it
i get mad at him
and when they're half naked
i get even worse
Because i think hes comparing me to them
thinking, "Why cant Katie be like that??"
and go all silent
and then he asks whats up
and i deny everything

i just feel so fat
i know he doesnt watch porn anymore because he loves me
and he knows that it was a factor that made me like this

i just wanna be thinner
but losing weight is annoying at the same time
none of my clothes fit
AT ALL!
THEY'RE ALL HUGE on me

I cant wait to be thinner
I cant wait to go to his dads wedding and be like... "hey, I'm Katie; Chris's Girlfriend!"
I want him to be proud to have me on his arm
and i'll do anything for his family to think i'm pretty
and THIN!
because i feel like the reason his sister doesnt like me is because she looks at me and thinks, "Chris could do so much better than that fat cow"
and i want her to think hes made a good decision
i want to have one of them bodies that look great in clothes
no matter what
i want to have a body that will look great in a dress

Another reason too, because he said he ~~likes~~ loves me too much
and he wants to move in with me
and get married
and have kids when were older
and i want to too
so whether his sister likes it or not shes not getting rid of me for a while

AND I WILL DO ANYTHING TO GET IT

well i'm going to bed now
laters
xxx

I had another fight over it...

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 12:56:32 GMT

I love my boyfriend to bits
and i mean it
i truely do

i just get so frustrated when he starts saying how he hates me hating myself
i'm really self conscious
and i put myself down ~~abit~~ ALOT
but when ever he tries to make me feel better
i analyse whatever he says
and read into it

i was going on about how ugly i was
and how he probably fancies some of the other girls we hang round with in town
but the he said, "theres a difference between like and love" and that he didnt fancy any of them
but why say it if he doesnt
i asked him who he thought was the prettiest and he said Danii
ARRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH!
i was breaking down writing poetry last night about it
Danii????
why?
coz shes slightly skinnier

And then i read more into it coz he said earlier, "your prettier than MOST of the girls in town"
i'm sorry but i thought your boyfriend was meant to make you feel special
like you were the only one that mattered
that you were the prettiest thing on earth
thats the reason i hate people complimenting me
they're always like
"oh you get more and more gorgeous everyday"
"your fitt"
"if you didnt have a boyfriend i'd be after you"

Its bugging me coz i dont want to ask
"were you including me when you said Danii was the prettiest??"
coz i'll sound like a bunny boiler
i dont like the thought of him even fancying people on tele
or other girls
even if he still loves me
it makes me feel worthless
and i hate it

One day he'll end up really liking Danii
And i already want to die enough
I love him so much and i want him to find me attractive
but how could anyone find this attractive...

Me

I just feel so empty not knowing
i love him so much
but i just want to scratch my face off now
i hate being so unattractive
i want him to love me more
and the only way i can do it is if i was skinny

SCREW SIZE 6
SIZE 0 IS MORE LIKE IT
THEN HE'LL ~~LIKE~~ LOVE ME MORE THAN DANII

XXXX

Writer's Block: Passionate Eats

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 22:07:05 GMT

What foods do you associate with romance or attraction?

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Grapes!
XD
Or strawberrys
but deffinatly not chocolate
coz it makes me think of fat!

xxx

I am quite bothered now

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 22:02:14 GMT

my boyfriends doesnt understand how hard it is to stop this
Me and my best mate are both really badly stricken with eating disorders
snd it doesnt help that my boyfriend is saying we're both gonna end up in hospital

he really upset me today
i dont want to stop this
it makes me feel better
everytime i purge i feel this wash of relief sweep over me
but it bothers him

does anyone else think that people make too big a deal about getting off drugs and smoking
coz i do
i told him today you can through cigarettes away, you carry yourself with you
if you dont like it
it makes you depresses

i feel so alone

He told me he doesnt want me to lose weight
but i feel like hes not attracted to me and its just a "you have a great personality thing"
he told me his other girlfriend was really skinny
that he could get one arm round her
and i felt so threatend by it that i ran out the room crying

i want him to be able to do that to me
to be able to pick me up like he did her
he can pick me up now
but i feel so heavy that i dont like him doing it

his dads wedding is in september and i want to be a size 6

can anyone help?
does anyone feel like this?
Does anyone have any tips?

i feel so threatend by his ex's
i want to be beautiful
i want to be thin
and i really need you help!

message me please
xxxx